Within Me Without Me

Thursday, June 29, 2006

So if you don't know what i do at my job, i am aHuman Resources Specialist for a Probation Department. I interview applicants and process new hires. since this is a law enforcement agency, we have certain requirements for eligibility, including a clear criminal history. I know, you would assume that people would know that. We ask on the application if they have a criminal record, then we tell them we'll do a criminal records check, and then, they sign a release form specifically allowing us to do so. So this person lies on the application, then signs the release to allow me to do a records check, and what do you think pops up? two counts of forgery and one count of delivery of 28 grams of crack cocaine. 10 years probation for the coke, five years deferred for the forgery. and i guess she thought it might slide, or that it wasn't really that big a deal, or that we wouldn't catch it?! so i had to call her up and tell her that although she interviewed well and was selected for processing, she was ineligible for hire, and she has the nerve to be mad at me! sorry sister, you made your bed.

Here's Aidan, after snacking on some crayons. I really do feed him!! He looks like a caveboy.

Tuesday, June 27, 2006

My friend kel is pregnant again!! I'm so excited for her, and will be praying constantly for her for the next 9 months!

my baby is finally asleep in her swing. i'm debating whether to leave her there or try to move her to the bassinet. ksl says her kids spent nights in the swing - why didn't i ever think of that? i mean, she's comfy, right? i think i'll go ahead and try to move her. the swing's in the den, and i don't want to sleep on the couch.

time for bed. work tomorrow. ugh.

Monday, June 26, 2006

ok, i think we're getting better at this. sadie, surprisingly, has slept from 11 pm til 6 or even 7 am three nights in a row. she is incredible! if i can get her to nap for a good while mid-day, she will stay up late then crash through the night. i hope it's healthy for her to do this already, being only a month old. it sure feels good to me.

i unfortunately have to go back to work wednesday. really sucks. i'll be at work wed and thurs, then i'm home all next week, because our sitter is on vacation in mexico. when she comes back, it's back to the grind for good. everyone at work was shocked that i'll be back so soon - believe me, it's not by choice. our county system only lets you take the amount of hours you have saved up in your sick, comp, and vacation hours. fmla covers it so you don't get in trouble for taking it all, but they don't actually provide time for maternity leave like private companies do. one of the drawbacks to working for the county. i only had five weeks saved up. i guess i didn't plan that very well.... oh well.

we do, however, have the best home care available in cha cha. she is like a grandmother for these two babies. aidan is a little spoiled - ok, rather spoiled. but at least i never worry if he's ok. ever. i sometimes feel sorry for her real grandchildren - i hope they don't feel like she loves my kids more than them!!

aidan will have to go to daycare soon, which bums me out a little. i know he's going to wail and scream and cry for hours his first day - probably all the first week at least. we're on a waiting list at the best day care in town, so it's really just a waiting game to see how long he gets to stay home. could be a month, could be till the end of the year. poor little guy. i know it will be great for him, and he'll really enjoy it and learn a whole lot, and probably start talking (!) sooner, but i just feel badly that he'll be so traumatized. how concerned should i be that he's over two years and still not talking? i mean he has a few words he says well, and many he barely says, and he's not yet putting sentences together or anything. we have a meeting with eci next week, as referred by my doctor. but i don't know, i know he takes everything in, and can do whatever i tell him to do, he undestands it all, just doesnt' want to talk. it does get frustrating, for me and for him i'm sure, but i just feel that he's coming along, slowly. we'll see what the "expert" says.

so at the doctor today, he gave me a "clean bill of health' and the go ahead to go back to work. he also gave the "you can have sex again" speech, and talked to me about birth control. he knows we use natural family planning, and i guess before i thought he was more supportive of it, since it was what helped us conceive the second time. but he was rather flippant, and said, "oh that's right you're a very strong catholic. you know, catholics can't even use condoms. i guess you won't be going to see the davinci code, right? " and i said, "yes, yes i know, and no." he seems to be very sure that the pill is the only way to prevent pregnancy, and fully expects to see me back in a few months, pregant again because i think breastfeeding is a surefire way to ward off pregnancy forever. oh well, you can't convince them all.

so the baby is asleep now, and aidan is awake, so i should spend some quality time while i have it.

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

I was just about to post when i heard the baby crying. she doesn't want to sleep! she'll finally nap from 7pm to about 11 pm, and be up all night!

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

We just had our carpets cleaned today, which makes the house look a million times better, and makes me want to keep it cleaner in general. Next step, the dogs go to the cleaners, because they're the biggest reason the carpets were so dirty to begin with. After that, who knows, I might even start vacuuming on a regular basis!

After that, we need to tackle the pile of junk in the corner of the living room. It's a bunch of old clothes, old books and an old printer that i think we were going to put on ebay. If i could get 15 bucks for the lot of it, i'd be happy.

Aidan is running in circles through the house. He loves to play baseball whenever the Astros are on. He takes his plastic bat and hits whatever ball he can find lying on the floor. Then he throws the bat down and runs for a while, until he decides he's gone far enough, then claps for himself. It's pretty funny to watch.

Sadie is sleeping finally. She didn't want to sleep all day. She wants to be in constant motion. Always being rocked or carried. I do truly believe you can't spoil a month-old baby, so I don't mind it so much now. She just needs to feel secure, and now is the only time i have to do that for her. I really don't want to go back to work, but what can you do?

So that's about it for my first post. I'll try to be more entertaining as i get used to this blogging thing!

So that's about it for my first blog.